vas sapnin, been a month.
sorry, been too busy during the holidays.
i was having so many things! camps + fop + outings + work, i was out almost everyday with barely enough rest! school has started, first week of school has gone by. not bad, i guess. *shrugs* shall do my best to perform well this semester and improve my GPA because i need to prove mama wrong.
this holiday, i've been learning how to shut my mouth. i'm practicing how to keep things to myself. things like my problems and things i find out which i'm not supposed to. these things? yeah, a lot during the holiday. but i'm just bottling it all up. why? simply because i don't wanna trouble anyone anymore, i don't wanna bother people with my issues when they have their own issues to settle. i'm sure i can handle them all by myself. insya'allah. so far so good, alhamdulillah. i've successfully gone by keeping my god damn mouth shut. i know how annoying i can be because i always rant and complain and tell people my problems no matter who they are, but not anymore.
i found out some things which i can't let it out because if i do, i'm afraid a fight might break out between us. i definitely do not want that to happen because i know how sensitive he can be. sometimes he is very unreasonable though, but i try to keep them to myself and not get mad at him when he hurt me. usually i just pretend like it's all okay. apparently that's what he does too. *shrugs* oh well. love him still.
i'm very involved right now and i'm pretty filled with my commitments. thus i'm not having much free time for myself and for anymore outings currently, but i'm dying for many. le sigh.
this semester, my classmates vary for every module. it sucks because it'll be hard to bond when we all meet about only once a week. but then again i guess it's alright since we're all from the same course. grooming for every h module is really strict and i hate it, ugh. but i have to go through with it, i have to sacrifice. i want to do well this semester and i will. insya'allah.
so i guess that sums up everything? i'll update again when i have the time to do so. much love! xx
