Le Sigh

Min: wished me goodluck for my ut, apologized for not texting me the past few days, asked about my ut, asked about my fingers which i cut & burn, asked about me fainting, makes me feel loved, cares for me, always hoping that i'm fine, always missing me, always complimenting me like 238477392732628 times a day sincerely, always there for me to let anything out and he would do anything to meet me as much as possible. 


You: do nothing, don't bother texting me, don't pujuk me when i merajuk, think you're always right and i'm always at fault, gets sympathy from others, bad mouth me (UNEXPECTED), commitments > me, annoying, always hurt me though i keep quiet and pretend all's well. It's almost as if you don't care at all, like min gives more fuck about me all the time. 


I don't know what to do right now, my thoughts are running all over the place. "Maybe you need somebody different, somebody that fits you like a glove..." Oh God, please help me. Please let me see the right path, please open my heart and help me see the truth. Let me know what is best for me. I cannot stand this any longer. Please light up my life and show me. Is he really worth it? Is he really the one for me? Or is this only lust which is only temporary? I need to know, I need to save myself from this constant misery.

Second ♥

5th may, our second :')
had an awesome nice day spent with baby, brought this jakun boy to sentosa for the first time. how cute ^.^
basically, i enjoyed it. hope he did too!
got him a wallet from some skate shop which costed me a bomb!!!!! hope he loves it. this is the most i've spent on a guy, he must be special. chey hehehehehe ;)
i fell in love all over again, teehee :*

4th may, was nice too.
rushed off after school! met min and he accompanied me to get baby's gift at town. we then met syamil and qing yang at novena for dinner at texas chicken! after that we slacked around and headed back to woodlands. met rudi there, slacked around, and we went home at around 10? yeah. and min carried my bag from the time we met all the way til the time we parted, how sweet :')

fuze welcome tea party & storm welcome tea party were a success! totally enjoyed them both :') hope everyone did too! xx

and a happy 18th to wen liang! :')

Bestfriend

Muhaimin has been super duper sweet to me these days! Too sweet it gets a little cheeky of him hahaha. Nice to know that I'm actually ranked the second most important person in his life right now and that i mean a lot to him. He never fails to cheer me up when i'm down, be my listening ear and advices me as and when he can, he always compliments me at the right time and he is just such a caring & good friend to me. I really am grateful to have met him and get the chance to know him well, because he is really there for me. It's like, i know i can count on him. He knows me inside out and he treats me well, despite only knowing each other for a few months! This morning, he made me breakfast (chocolate mint pancakes with nutella, which was his first attempt) and he walked me all the way to school :') Love this boy please! <3