Le Sigh

Min: wished me goodluck for my ut, apologized for not texting me the past few days, asked about my ut, asked about my fingers which i cut & burn, asked about me fainting, makes me feel loved, cares for me, always hoping that i'm fine, always missing me, always complimenting me like 238477392732628 times a day sincerely, always there for me to let anything out and he would do anything to meet me as much as possible. 


You: do nothing, don't bother texting me, don't pujuk me when i merajuk, think you're always right and i'm always at fault, gets sympathy from others, bad mouth me (UNEXPECTED), commitments > me, annoying, always hurt me though i keep quiet and pretend all's well. It's almost as if you don't care at all, like min gives more fuck about me all the time. 


I don't know what to do right now, my thoughts are running all over the place. "Maybe you need somebody different, somebody that fits you like a glove..." Oh God, please help me. Please let me see the right path, please open my heart and help me see the truth. Let me know what is best for me. I cannot stand this any longer. Please light up my life and show me. Is he really worth it? Is he really the one for me? Or is this only lust which is only temporary? I need to know, I need to save myself from this constant misery.