ANGST AND RAGE

EVERY FUCKING SOUL IS GETTING ON MY LAST NERVES RIGHT NOW. SO PISSED I CAN'T EVEN. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!

NOBODY CARES. I AM FUCKING INSIGNIFICANT. WHEN DID I EVER MATTER TO ANY FUCKING ONE? ALWAYS THERE FOR EVERYONE BUT IN TIMES WHEN I'M IN NEED NOBODY IS FUCKING AVAILABLE TO EVEN HEAR ME OUT. I MEAN HELLO I AM NOT ASKING FOR MUCH. IS IT TOO HARD TO SIMPLY BOTHER?! AM I THAT INVISIBLE? DO I FUCKING MEAN NOTHING TO ALL OF YOU? CAN'T YOU JUST FUCKING BE THERE? I MEAN SERIOUSLY??????

I USED TO OPEN UP SO EASILY AND SIMPLY TO ALMOST ANYONE BUT NOW NOBODY GIVE A FLYING FUCK NOT EVEN THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE WOW. WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT?! THE ONLY PERSON I'M WILLING TO OPEN UP TO ISN'T EVEN WILLING TO LISTEN. HOW PATHETIC AM I?! APPARENTLY MY SHIT DON'T MATTER HUH? IT'S LIKE I CAN DISAPPEAR FROM THE FACE OF THE EARTH RIGHT NOW AND NOBODY GIVES A SHIT LIKE FUCK YOU!!!!!!

JUST DON'T FUCKING BOTHER ANYMORE OK, HONESTLY. JUST FUCKING DON'T.

IT'S PROBABLY TIME FOR ME TO BUILD UP THEM WALLS AND SHUT THE FUCKING WORLD OUT. I SHOULD FUCKING GO MISSING IN ACTION.

I NEED TO INFLICT PAIN ON MYSELF SO BADLY RIGHT NOW BUT I DON'T WANT TO REGRET. WHICH MEANS I NEED TO INFLICT PAIN THAT WILL MEAN SOMETHING. PIERCINGS AND TATTOOS COUNT OK. I NEED THEM. I NOW IT'S STUPID THAT I TURN TO THESE BUT HEY AT LEAST THEY MAKE ME FEEL A LITTLE BETTER WHENEVER I FEEL SO FUCKING SHITTY AND THEY'RE PRETTY HOT! DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT WASTE OF MONEY OR RELIGION OR WHATEVER SHIT LA I SWEAR I WILL FUCK YOU UP IF YOU DO SO.

JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AND LET ME DO WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT. MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS. I HATE ALL OF YOU!!! I NEED A DRINK OR TWO.