The most important person in my life.

Today I wasted my day away yet I loved it.

My bestest decided to spend the day with me to make me feel better, so we skipped school.
Despite it being a day that my HIS UT2 falls on, I couldn't care less about school. Why? I'm facing too much stress right now and I'm an emotional wreck. I was going to screw up the practical exam anyways, so fuck it.

Wore quite a lot of concealer and geeks to cover up my swollen eyes from last night.

Mac breakfast, took our MCs from choa chu kang's polyclinic, collected her pay cheques from McPherson Road, Mac for early dinner, all the heart to heart talk the whole day. Yeap, sums up my awesome day spent with my best girl.

Guess all I need right now is some space. Time away from all these shit going on in my oh so complicated love life. All I need right now are distractions, laughters, anything to get my mind off these.

I still need to face this sooner or later because I have to solve this. I need to come to a decision.

Exactly a year ago, same thing. Was an emotional wreck because I got my heart broken for putting too much hope on Nas. And now, Ka and Min...
Ya Allah, adakah ini semua cobaan darimu untuk mencabar kesabaranku pada bulan Ramadhan ini?

Realised Ka could have been my rebound because if I recall correctly, I was not over Nas when Ka was contacting me.. And then I just went with the flow. Until Min came along..
Realised that if I really loved Ka, I wouldn't have fallen for Min..
Realised what a two faced douche Ka is..
Realised that I am not me when I'm with Ka..
Came to so many realisations today, I can't even..

I thank Allah for giving me friends who care enough to ask, and for giving me Nurul Amirah Binte Ahmad who is always here for me no matter what. She was here when I was at my lowest last year, and yet again she was here for me right now. I cannot thank her enough for everything, I love her so much for all that she has done for me.

I am not strong enough to face all these. Ya Allah, please give me strength and guide me through this.

I shall distance myself from both Ka and Min for now, let's just see how things go.. Good luck to me *shrugs*