Impromptu plans

Yesterday was a nice impromptu date with mama! We had brunch at Hot Tomato and we went shopping at H&M :') It was really something different because we've never really done this, just me and her. I like it ^.^

Today was a very impromptu swimming session at Jurong East with Syaffy, Syamil, Ben, Amin, Muhaimin, Qusyairi and his bro Syazwan. It was really awesome and fun. Definitely the first time they've seen me so...... ugly. With no contacts and absolutely no make up at all. And flattened wet hair with no fringe. Yet we had the time of our lives, enjoying ourselves. It's nice to feel comfortable enough with a group of friends where you are not afraid to be yourself. We got screened by the police afterwards though, so random. Some of us then headed over to JCube for some sushi and mac. The boys then decided to chao cab to linkway where they'll meet the rest so they sent me home too on the way :') Such a nice day spent <3 p="">
Really thankful for my family and my friends. They have made my days before I'm flying off to Aussie tmr night. Well, until then! xx

Bestfriend & yellow jimmy

Coincidentally wore yellow tops, yellow watches and caps with jimmy the other day when we both hung out together while the rest were at town. All we did was slack in the library, but it was nice. The rest then came to meet us at around 9pm and we just enjoyed being ourselves slacking under the night sky. The boys being themselves of course stole some beer and got high. I think it was really adorable and entertaining how they were acting :') Being with them bros are just something I always look forward to because they bring joy to my life. Really appreciate them just being there because they bring colours to my life without even being aware of it, and that's what's great about it!

Ami then came over to my crib to ton, which was awesome! We stopped by Prime Supermarket and got ourselves free Ben&Jerry's ice cream, mama cooked some real yummy tom yum noodles for us, and we had cake too! We just spent the night talking and gossiping away, having fun being ourselves. We watched movies too! She was supposed to leave at 8am though but we both fell asleep so she ended up leaving at 1pm and was late for her project! Haha well, what's new coming from her right? ;) I'm missing her real bad right now cause she's away in Cambodia :( I've gotten too used to meeting her almost everyday, not being able to see her for 10 days is just pure torture. BEST GIRL NEEDS TO HURRY BACK HOME <3>

USS first date ♥

It was pretty impromptu and last minute, but it was one awesome day spent! It was my first date with G Suganthan, and it was also my very first trip to the one and only USS. Yes, I am finally no longer a USS virgin! :') We met at 9am and went to grab our brunch at vivo's subway. Had an enjoyable time at the park riding all the awesome extreme rides and taking pictures and stuff. I swear I feel like I've just accomplished life's mission upon conquering my fears and being the bravest girl on Earth to ride them roller coasters! The adrenaline rush I got from the rides, indescribable! When it rained, we got caught and wet! It was fun though ^.^ Also visited Kenny three times at work since he works at one of the stores in the park :)

We left the park at around 6.45pm and headed off to vivo to get our dinner. We ate at the rooftop and just slacked there. We talked about anything and everything under the night sky, the weather was perfect. It felt so nice I did not want to leave. I wanted to just stay all night with him and just talk. It's really nice to have a decent conversation for your first date, y'know? The fact that I can be myself around him since we've been friends for about a year now and we were classmates, it makes me feel comfortable. Well, I don't know where this will bring me but let's just go with the flow yeah?

Fuck

So I heard some stuff from the boys....

Apparently H is one huge motherfucking player with a huge motherfucking ego of like 10 boys combined. He isn't serious about me at all and he totally is just toying with me. I guess I don't really care for the fact that I'm not really having feelings for him. But it just annoys the shit out of me that he made me feel special. I am so gullible and naive to fall for his empty words.

I don't know what his ex did to him which fucked him up real bad, but I hate her for doing so because now he thinks it's okay to be fucking with girls around. Fuck him. Ugh, I'm so angsty right now I can't even..

But actually, I swear I don't mind just being friends with benefits with him. Or with any good looking guys for that matter. Because I am in no position to love. I am not ready for commitments, for a relationship. It takes too much effort and sacrifices, and it might not be worth the heart aches and the tears and the bickers and the sleepless nights. All I want is to have fun, to enjoy my teenage life as much as I can. I just need company, I want to flirt around, I want to just be wild, I want to get wasted, I want to be able to make out with anyone and not get into trouble for it. I do not want to be tied down and controlled and shit because of a relationship. Yes, all I want is freedom and fun. Fun fun fun fun fun. Fuck.

WHERE ALL 'EM BOYS AT? COME AT ME YO.

Kinky.

French kissing, grinding, finger fucking, neck biting/kissing, lip biting, ass grabbing, cuddling, locking fingers with each other.

Me likey. Thanks S and H :') Mmhmmmm dap dap *.*

So what's it to you?

Let's talk about my chubby bunny qt babyboy sayang :')

Well, I really have no idea what our relationship is. I mean... In front of our friends, we barely talk. I don't get why. But when he texts me, he's totally a different guy. Flirt maha flirt y'know! Which makes it hard for me to understand my feelings myself because he's giving me mixed signals. So last night he invited me over to his house....

Yeah, I went over to his crib earlier today. We spent about 2 hours together alone in his house. All I can say is, I LOVED IT. I mean, I like how we just slack there, we made out and stuff, and we just cuddled and watched cartoon and laugh and disturb each other. It was really nice. I hope this means something. But even if it doesn't, I don't mind. We could just be friends with benefits, maybe? I mean, if he doesn't want to pursue me as his future girlfriend I suppose. Well I just really enjoyed his company.

So I'm currently contacting H, yet at the same time some other boys. And it's to the extend where we're calling each other "baby", "darling", "love", "sayang" and the list goes on. Yes, these names with all them boys. Gosh, I am such a flirt huh? I feel like a slut :(
I don't get why I'm entertaining all of them. I don't understand myself, but I like it. I really do.

I just hope now H is gonna treat me a little better when we're around our friends rather than the cold shoulder treatment :/ I wonder what he thinks of me and I wonder what he feels about me. I wonder what is our relationship to him. I just wonder...

Let's get wasted

TEAM RURAL? Spending my time with them has always been such fun and excitement. The thrills I get with them because of the random things we do, the random heart to heart talks with some of them, the quality time spent together, the free entertainment I get ;) Haha, I can go on forever when it comes to them because I've been spending too much time with them. I like how they're a huge part of my life right now, I like how they are my bros that I know I can count on. One girl best friend is enough because too many girlfriends might cause a hell lot of chaos and hoo haa as I've learnt in the past 18 years of my life. But you can never have enough bros who will happily light up your world anytime you need them. I just love them boys such that words can never express ♥

WIGGLERS! ♥
So this has been our third chalet together so far. And as usual, it's fun yet at the same time some things happened. Well, I got wasted and drunk. That's one thing. Secondly, I made out with a hell lot of people. Heny, Adelia, Juliani. Yup I french kissed them girls. Who else you might ask? G Suganthan of course. We made out a hell lot of times during the drinking games, and we got high. When he took care of me, we ended up getting all kinky and naughty. So yes, we all know where this goes. And then he confessed so now I guess we're giving this a shot? Well, dating Sugi is one thing. But I still have some sort of feelings for Haziq as well. I'm such a mess right now. My thoughts and feelings are all over the place. I'm unsure of who I really want. I guess I'll just go with the flow, try not to put my hopes up for either of them, and see how things go? I'll see where contacting them both brings me. I just hope I won't end up breaking either of their heart, that's all I'm asking for. I don't really know if I'm ready for a relationship or any commitments for that matter, but I really want someone in my life whom I can call mine. Oh well.... Let's just see where life takes me :)

I gotta say I enjoy drinking, I love the feeling it gave me. I like how I get high, it's fun. I like how I get real kinky when I'm drunk too :') Hehehe. Getting wasted is awesome. So let's get wasted yo! Drink drink drink is all I want right now.

Legend of all camps in history!

Above is my lovely HOTEL FUZE IG committee members! So much memories, good and bad, has been made with them this past year. We organized the most unique and awesome camp ever in the history of school camps that we received many overwhelming positive feedbacks from our juniors, our fellow friends and even our facilitators/advisors! The praises we got for holding this successfully was uncountable and totally heart warming! Smiles were all over our faces while reading and listening to all these really good comments and compliments, it's really touching and nice after suffering and sacrificing so much in preparation. Despite having regrets and hating being in the committee at times due to the heavy load of commitments, responsibilities, duties, and "homeworks"... I guess sometimes it's worth it, sometimes it feels good too :')

Very soon indeed, it'll be time to welcome a whole new batch of committee members! This year's camp has totally awed and impressed everyone and it's a whole new name for fuze! However this raises the bars for the Year 1s to upkeep our reputation, let's hope they won't fail us! :) I'm excited to interview freshies to join our family! Hehe.

Life as it is.

Breaking up with Hamka? My best decision thus far! No regrets at all.

Loving my RURAL usuals! They are my temporary happiness. I just feel awesome whenever they're around, they make me happy. I like the way they influence me as well, although some may not be a good thing. But still. I think they're like the best group of people I've met in my life! I actually hope that our friendship will last for a very very long time. Can't wait for our jalan raya outing this 11th of september! Spending most of my time with them has been really awesome and I cannot thank them enough for the joy they bring to my life.

Bulatians? I don't even know what to say. I miss them so, they're my best group of friends from secondary school. But it feels like we're all falling apart. Can you believe the fact that we're not having a jalan raya outing this year?! This is a first. I hope we will still be able to make enough time for each other to at least meet up some time soon. I do not want this friendship of ours to break.

My chubby bunny qt dimpleboy tayang? Idk how we started, but he was already my eyecandy when I was still with Hamka. To think of it, we were already contacting even when I was still with Hamka too :/ Oopsy daisy? Well.. I look forward to his texts, no matter the time of the day. I look forward to seeing him, grabbing every opportunity there is. He's really shy when it comes to all these, but I hope we'll work things out. He makes my day everyday, he's cute, he's handsome, he's sweet, he's cool, he's a talented skater (which is a plus point because I cannot express how much I've had a thing for skaterboys since secondary school). I just hope he likes me. I mean, seems like he does but I'm not sure y'know. The usuals are teasing us and he isn't denying anything.. I hope this means something. We had a mini date on Sunday night. It was our first one on one meet up, and I have to say it was a little awkward because both of us were too shy. But I enjoyed it nonetheless because things slowly got better. His smile, his jokes, his childishness playing a fool, his teasing me, when his eyes meet mine..... OH GOD. You cannot imagine how twisted my insides were, butterflies everywhere! Stalking his instagram and his twitter has become a daily routine for me. Well, let's just go with the flow and hope things turn out good :') Though I'm unsure of my own feelings for him, and he definitely isn't sure of his too. Who knows what love is anyways at this age we're at? Just hoping for the best outcome! All I know is, he's always on my mind and I can't help but go gaga over him :/ Good or bad? I don't even know.

Oh yes, and I'm finally legal now. Though my 18th sucked terribly! Ugh. Super duper way worse than anything I've expected/experienced for a birthday. Princess didn't get her helium balloons, her crown, her anything princess related things, and any presents for that matter. Can you imagine? No presents for your 18th? Uh huh. Just an awesome DGK deck from Daddy, and some random stuffs from Ami Yami. That's all. Even my own parents and Ibu didn't give me anything. Life :')

Raya? WORST EVER. Had to wear slippers, my awesome baju raya has yet to arrive from Johor (yes up til now which is like the 3rd week of raya pfft), NO JALAN RAYA OUTINGS (not really but well, barely any).

UT? Haha don't get me started. My GPA is so going to drop a hell lot this semester and I'm ready to die. Mama's gonna kill the fuck out of me! Oh well.

Not forgetting, I'm actually starting to skate now. I mean, I know it's a little bit of a super late start..... I'm like already 18 for God's sake. But well, I've always wanted to try! But I never had the chance and I never had the guts to do so! Now that my usuals are pretty much all skaterboys, it's my chance! I've a penny board and a deck, both awesomely nice I'm in love with them :')

Well, now I'm not gonna get any sleep for 3 days because of Fuze Camp. I'm super pissed and annoyed because I'm fucking treated like a damn slave for this shit ass event and Qi En is making too much of a big deal out of this. I just hate it, so much I can't even! Ugh fucking hell.