Life as it is.

Breaking up with Hamka? My best decision thus far! No regrets at all.

Loving my RURAL usuals! They are my temporary happiness. I just feel awesome whenever they're around, they make me happy. I like the way they influence me as well, although some may not be a good thing. But still. I think they're like the best group of people I've met in my life! I actually hope that our friendship will last for a very very long time. Can't wait for our jalan raya outing this 11th of september! Spending most of my time with them has been really awesome and I cannot thank them enough for the joy they bring to my life.

Bulatians? I don't even know what to say. I miss them so, they're my best group of friends from secondary school. But it feels like we're all falling apart. Can you believe the fact that we're not having a jalan raya outing this year?! This is a first. I hope we will still be able to make enough time for each other to at least meet up some time soon. I do not want this friendship of ours to break.

My chubby bunny qt dimpleboy tayang? Idk how we started, but he was already my eyecandy when I was still with Hamka. To think of it, we were already contacting even when I was still with Hamka too :/ Oopsy daisy? Well.. I look forward to his texts, no matter the time of the day. I look forward to seeing him, grabbing every opportunity there is. He's really shy when it comes to all these, but I hope we'll work things out. He makes my day everyday, he's cute, he's handsome, he's sweet, he's cool, he's a talented skater (which is a plus point because I cannot express how much I've had a thing for skaterboys since secondary school). I just hope he likes me. I mean, seems like he does but I'm not sure y'know. The usuals are teasing us and he isn't denying anything.. I hope this means something. We had a mini date on Sunday night. It was our first one on one meet up, and I have to say it was a little awkward because both of us were too shy. But I enjoyed it nonetheless because things slowly got better. His smile, his jokes, his childishness playing a fool, his teasing me, when his eyes meet mine..... OH GOD. You cannot imagine how twisted my insides were, butterflies everywhere! Stalking his instagram and his twitter has become a daily routine for me. Well, let's just go with the flow and hope things turn out good :') Though I'm unsure of my own feelings for him, and he definitely isn't sure of his too. Who knows what love is anyways at this age we're at? Just hoping for the best outcome! All I know is, he's always on my mind and I can't help but go gaga over him :/ Good or bad? I don't even know.

Oh yes, and I'm finally legal now. Though my 18th sucked terribly! Ugh. Super duper way worse than anything I've expected/experienced for a birthday. Princess didn't get her helium balloons, her crown, her anything princess related things, and any presents for that matter. Can you imagine? No presents for your 18th? Uh huh. Just an awesome DGK deck from Daddy, and some random stuffs from Ami Yami. That's all. Even my own parents and Ibu didn't give me anything. Life :')

Raya? WORST EVER. Had to wear slippers, my awesome baju raya has yet to arrive from Johor (yes up til now which is like the 3rd week of raya pfft), NO JALAN RAYA OUTINGS (not really but well, barely any).

UT? Haha don't get me started. My GPA is so going to drop a hell lot this semester and I'm ready to die. Mama's gonna kill the fuck out of me! Oh well.

Not forgetting, I'm actually starting to skate now. I mean, I know it's a little bit of a super late start..... I'm like already 18 for God's sake. But well, I've always wanted to try! But I never had the chance and I never had the guts to do so! Now that my usuals are pretty much all skaterboys, it's my chance! I've a penny board and a deck, both awesomely nice I'm in love with them :')

Well, now I'm not gonna get any sleep for 3 days because of Fuze Camp. I'm super pissed and annoyed because I'm fucking treated like a damn slave for this shit ass event and Qi En is making too much of a big deal out of this. I just hate it, so much I can't even! Ugh fucking hell.