Fuck

So I heard some stuff from the boys....

Apparently H is one huge motherfucking player with a huge motherfucking ego of like 10 boys combined. He isn't serious about me at all and he totally is just toying with me. I guess I don't really care for the fact that I'm not really having feelings for him. But it just annoys the shit out of me that he made me feel special. I am so gullible and naive to fall for his empty words.

I don't know what his ex did to him which fucked him up real bad, but I hate her for doing so because now he thinks it's okay to be fucking with girls around. Fuck him. Ugh, I'm so angsty right now I can't even..

But actually, I swear I don't mind just being friends with benefits with him. Or with any good looking guys for that matter. Because I am in no position to love. I am not ready for commitments, for a relationship. It takes too much effort and sacrifices, and it might not be worth the heart aches and the tears and the bickers and the sleepless nights. All I want is to have fun, to enjoy my teenage life as much as I can. I just need company, I want to flirt around, I want to just be wild, I want to get wasted, I want to be able to make out with anyone and not get into trouble for it. I do not want to be tied down and controlled and shit because of a relationship. Yes, all I want is freedom and fun. Fun fun fun fun fun. Fuck.

WHERE ALL 'EM BOYS AT? COME AT ME YO.