Good morning, here I am again up so early on a Sunday morning.
I went to sleep crying and I woke up crying. I felt bad the whole damn night and I still feel bad right now. I guess this is my punishment for creating such a misunderstanding with her. It's even causing a misunderstanding with baby. I woke up receiving missed calls and texts from baby and Wardah. I just didn't feel like talking to anyone last night. But I guess he thought too much about it thinking he's at fault. Oh god, no. I'm the only one at fault here, in my opinion. I guess he was just too worried he even called Faqih and Faqih told Wardah and so Wardah texted me. Oh dayum why is so many people involved? I got so many people worrying about me and I don't know why. I'm not mad at baby at all, but I caused him to be in a terrible mess just because I didn't reply him and I didn't answer his calls. Fudge, now I hate myself even more. I wonder if everyone else hates me too. I bet they all do. I'm such an annoying, sensitive, emotional, weak, stupid idiotic ass girl. Who in their right mind would love me?
Damn, she's going around telling so many people about me. The only 'people' I told was Ami because she's my bestest friend and she's the only one I trust. But she's like telling the whole world about our misunderstanding. Why? Sigh, I really don't get her at all. I wonder if her side of the story will make me look like a really really bad person :( I hope not..
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