My face is ugly right now. My eyes hurts. I've been crying so much that my eyes are swollen and red. My nose is red too. I must stop myself from crying. I don't want to go to school tmr like this. People will ask. I don't want people to know. I don't want people to pity me and all that shit. I don't want too many people who care to worry about me. I don't like it. Not one bit. I hate making people I love worry about me. My BFF and my baby are both feeling useless, they both don't know what to do to cheer me up. Well, right now, nothing can. All I need is someone to hug. But sadly it's not possible right now.
Well, she has a hell huge amount of friends who cares for her and pity her and cheer her up and what not. She's lucky, she's blessed. To have so many people there for her. Unlike me. When I'm the one way more hurt than her. I don't get why she's telling everyone still, when I thought we've settled this. She said she's forgiven me but she's still sharing what I did to her to the whole world. I bet everyone's gonna hate me now. I know she has a super mega large circle of close friends which just so happens that some are our mutual friends. I mean, it is RP. Everyone knows everyone one way or another, right?
Well, I have to be strong and quit crying over this stupid matter. I hate how I'm so sensitive and I'm easily affected. Been cooped up in my room since I woke up, most probably gonna stay here the whole day and night. I'm too hungry, I think I'm gonna die.
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